It has now become an annual ritual to proactively plan a time frame of stillness in the month of my birthday. The first year, I went to Thailand and disconnected from all forms to technology influenced social communicators (Phone calls, text messages, emails, social networks: Instagram and Facebook) with the goal of gaining mentally clarity that will fuel personal authenticity.
This year I went to Cappadoica, Turkey.
A Think Weekend, or any two day time frame is a short version of a Think Week. A Think Week is a 7 day solo retreat from your social norm that enables you to mentally recharge and excel your personal development. Think Weeks are usually done in a location distant from your residence to provide a feeling of farsighted self-observation. Locations away from your residence, are also used to control the temptation of prematurely reconnecting with social influences. However, depending on your level of your self-discipline, they can also be done at home.
My goal was to use the intrinsic meaning of a Think Week in a tangible way. I travelled to Cappadoica to unbiasedly reflect on the overall journey of my life from a hot air ballon at sunrise. Pictures can only paint a glimpse of the untainted vision of clarity I was able to connect with while I was drifting in the sky that day. Upon coming down, I used the rest of my time in Cappadoica to write out whatever message my soul desired to say.
September 17th 6:48am
“Be curious with all of your heart. It’s so easy to fall asleep on your actual life. To wake up and question the duration you have left on earth, only when visions of death present itself, is to live a life that has already died.
As we drift further and further from our so called childhood and into the misted mindset of adulthood. My life continuously reminds me that the depth of celebration relies heavily on my ability to emotionally create a space for its existence. Through inquiring the essence behind the definition of words that hold possession over feelings such as, “fear, envy, caution, and jealousy” my awareness has explored parts of me that would only appear to tread in shallow socially-conditioned waters.
I use this quote the most to challenge my subconsciously-governed mind when I’m back home. However, during my trip to Dubai and Turkey for my 26th birthday, it helped me uncover more understanding of emotions I have withheld from myself in my life back home.
“Mystery is not about traveling to new places, it’s about looking with new eyes” When you travel, nothing that presents itself has a prior negative record in your mind. To paint a palpable picture, your mind stores these new sceneries from travel on the “shelf of beauty” allowing its being to stand present in every moment with zero purposes of possession. However, if you are home, the sceneries that once sat on the “shelf of beauty” some how get moved to the “shelf of ownership”.
When you feel like you “own” something, its hard to allow that subject to grow beyond your capacity to comprehend it. Thus, creating an reverse-igniting effect on your brain and limiting your chances of learning from the subject in a whole. In the human eyes, it is hard to see the same thing more than 3 times without holding it to a past objective.”
As you go out into the scenery that has appeared to have shadowed your life, ask yourself “Can I love this without wanting to own it?”